Originally Posted by
lpRN13108
Well today is a much better day in my world. My life is like a rollercoaster these days! I talked to my Dr. and took another LOA and I am really trying hard to get into working the program. I got a sponsor,and am going to try to do 90 meetings/90 days. I feel alot more hopeful about what kind of day I will have without drugs and alcohol. I went to a noon meeting with a new friend, then met another new friend for coffee and we chatted for over an hour. I haven't made new friends for so long, and it feels wonderful. I actually have people to call and things to do WoW! I am getting involved in our town's AA assembly weekend..not sure what it is exactly but I told my sponsor(yes I got one finally) I would do whatever she needs me to do to help with it. It feels good that I used my voice and spoke up when I was feeling overwelmed by trying to fit everything in to my schedule. Normally I would just keep ALL the obligations and be frantic,irritated and angry because people expected so much from me..but I would just do it anyway because I wanted people to like me. I realize that the reason people like or dislike me has nothing to do with schedule but everything to do with my attitude..so if I want people to like me I need to keep my life simple and manageable so I am a likeable person. Wow who would have thought after the lousy past few days I have had that I could actually learn a concept like that. Thank you all for being tolerable of my pity party in the last few entries, and thanks to those who gave support, without friends like you I would not be able to get through sobriety and start working toward recovery.