Depression... what to me to do?

In September has suddenly died my aunt, and it was to me as native mother.
I have not uttered any teardrop though it there was a greater loss! Also has begun: the FEAR is has started to operate me, instead of me. There are no forces - ABSOLUTELY! I should sit, stand, something to do. I feel constant weariness. Contrary to to all I WISH to live, I do not wish to be the madwoman!
What to me to do?

AnjelikaM wrote:In September has suddenly died my aunt, and it was to me as native mother.
I have not uttered any teardrop though it there was a greater loss! Also has begun: the FEAR is has started to operate me, instead of me. There are no forces - ABSOLUTELY! I should sit, stand, something to do. I feel constant weariness. Contrary to to all I WISH to live, I do not wish to be the madwoman!
What to me to do?

Hi,

It's good that you are seeking help. Grief is very hard to work through. Do you have other close family to work through this with? Have you thought about talking to clergy? Think about getting help from a therapist too. My best wishes to you,

R

I am very sorry to hear about your loss. Think about what she would have wanted you to do. Know that she is with you and carry her strength with you. Continue to make her proud, as you have been. It takes time to get through the grieving process. Be patient with yourself. Share your thoughts with those who care enough to listen. In time, you will heal.