CorollaULEV,
maybe i am too hard on myself, but i'm not sad about that or does it bother me that much i dont think. but others have told me i am too hard on myself. what makes me depressed/sad is the fact i'm a nursing major and i am embarrased of it. is this what made you depressed? it's really odd, i am SO happy and jolly when i'm away from nursing, such as when i'm just chilling on the weekends, but man when clinicals come around i am shot down. i've tried various things to help me cope and really right now my biggest concern is my lack of focus and energy. my memory seems to have gone to hell. caffeine doesn't help and i tried other stimulants. a lot of the students i know are taking aderol but i dont have access to something like that. i hate to take medicines but if they help, they help.
today at clinical it was horrible. i was left in the back to walk alone, the girls didn't talk to me much, and yep i was asked 'why are you going to be a nurse, why not a doctor?' my clients daughter also told us she didn't want us taking care of her mother cause we were students. nothing seemed to go right. i left clinicals thinking about if i made the right choice going into nursing and if i was really pushing myself to my fullest potential by doing so, something that means a great deal to me. i want to make sure i am pushing myself to my limits and fullest potential. can you relate? i notice you just got your degree how is it going?