hey, it makes all the sence in the world having been 13 years clean a back surgury lead me to relapes, i was not will to talk bout the let down, and contimued the pain meds with real or imagened pain. for addicts there is a part of your brain that the drugs control the feel good center in the hypo thalmus. when abstinate it lies dormate but after re-exposer perscribed or not it gets awoken again, it makes you think about the drug daily. after 13 years i rearly thought about drugs on a daily bases, but after the surgury it was a constant,. talk about it go to more meetings nd keep the beast caged ha!