Try not to think so far into the future. I'm pretty sure that is where my problem was. I started dwelling on the urge to drink instead of asking for help and remembering that it is just a temporary feeling and I have to find any way to get past it, and NEVER give in to it again. I gave in for"just a night" and after 11 days of continuous drinking I now have 1 day sober again. Think about what you have to lose,make a list of all the things your grateful for and ask your higher power(whatever that may be) for help to get through the urge. In the last 10 days I have done alot of damage to my body as well as my mental health.I was almost to a suicidal point again..doing self harming behavior. You have been lucky as far as your losses being temp. but please take this disease seriously. I decided that I would see if the craziness in my head again was all from the drinking,I stopped for one day yesterday it was hard but I asked for help and tried to keep my mind busy. When I woke up this morning my thinking was already diff. even though all the alcohol isn't out of my body and brain again yet.I realized that what everyone says is right. I am addicted to alcohol and it makes me crazy.I will pray that we both learn to recover instead of suffer.