There is light at the end of the tunnel. One question for you, were you diverting? If you were, then I would suggest you find recovery, as this is what is changing my life. I still have RAMP in my life, and they will be for the next 4.25 years at least. Not everyone has the Board of Nursing or Attorney General involved in their case. Well, let me rephrase. Everyone has the Board of Nursing involved (as everything has to be reported to them), but because of them being overloaded with complaints due to the Cullen law, they are sending most people right into RAMP. You're case seems to be more involved then mine, but I know others in my RAMP peer group that have similar involvement. Did you have to hand in your license or is it physically still in your possession? You are not alone. If you are an addict, focus on recovery and everything else will fall into place. Today, for me, life is good. Actually it's better than it's ever been. A year ago, my world was falling down and I was in constant despair. I was afraid to reach out to anyone and didn't know RAMP existed. Stay with it. Chris