I have sat before the disability advisory committee. Have no experience with a hearing. If you want to continue nursing I say go to the hearing and face the music. Part of our recovery is growing up and facing our wreakage. Plenty of people relapse, slip whatever. I am sure you are not the first to do something like this. I wish you courage, hope and strength. You can get through this, the point is to go through it, don't run. (We love to run).
Tracey