"why am I writing this? I'm scared ****less and sometimes wonder how how'll be able to survive wtihout substances
dlh--I haven't been in an identical situation but I would chose the one year suspension also. I am just now returning to work after going in to detox on December 12th, 2005. I have been clean since then. I've found that the only way I can live in recovery is by taking it one day at a time. On rough days I take the morning, afternoon and evening at a time. I used for over 13 years and never thought I could make it one day without benzo's/opiates/alcohol. Honestly it hasn't been that difficult by staying involved in NA, praying and getting honest with people so I don't carry thoughts of using by my self. Hugs, sophie~