<font color="purple"> </font color> It's not so much how many hour I work, but how driven I feel to nurse as I was trained to nurse, and not just hurry through crisis to crisis, with the list in my head of the important things I must get done growing longer and longer, without taking time to drink or go to the bathroom believing their needs are more important than mine, trying so very hard to give good care to so many I am assigned with more coming, until I choose the least of evils to leave undone. After all of that being told I must get better at opening charts sooner, knowing that leaves needed nursing care left undone. I am trying hard to organise better and better, but the more I do the more I am asked to do. I just want to go home thinking of the good I accomplished. It helps after my 12 hour shift was really 14 hours with only about a 20 minute break without working and not counting time taken to go to the bathroom. I must dwell on the good I have done and not think so much on what I still did not get done. I have foujnd a group forming a Union and tryhing to get enough to ask for a vote and am contributing. I listen to many nurses who started the same time I did that are planning to quit now. We have 4 nurses on my floor alone off work with knee injuries now. Trying to save time lifting alone and without a lift. It is very hard... But... I would not be able to support my disabled husband and have four days off a week to do what I want without this job. I pray that the public becomes involved and nursing care becomes what It should be and not this rapid make money for insurance companies and management that I think it may be now. When we are overstaffed they pull nurses or make some go home keeping us short and working this hard by choice. I just did a nursing survey on OIJN. I guess it has me down. While answering the questions I was dwelling on how bad it really is. I do get lots of thanks and appreciation from my patients and co-workers. I will start anew tomorrow. Would appreciate any words of incouragement or advice anyone has to offer.